Me and My Beast - 01/08/08

I've been feeling a little strange lately, different from my usual strangeness. It's difficult to explain - I almost feel as though I'm in a different world. I guess this coincides with my "nothing is real" philosophy. I'm finding myself whispering and at times talking to myself - especially when I'm alone in the garage smoking. I'm not talking to any particular voices - just to myself. But I'm making conversations with whomever I'm talking to meaning I keep up with both sides of the conversation myself. I don't know - do you do that frequently? Perhaps it's an effect of being asocial and therefore not really have anybody to talk to. Sorry in advance if I offend you but I often refer myself to being "socially retarded". My mind goes blank in almost every adult conversation unless I know the person/people very well.

I've been taking Risperdal mtabs in an attempt to rid this feeling of mine and it seems to work, albeit only for a while.

I gotta go now as I'm really tired from the Nozinan and mtabs.