Me and My Beast - 05/17/08

Well I'm fully off the Risperdal now thank god. My psychiatrist had to bump my Haldol from 5mg to 10mg (I know, big jump) due to some residual psychotic thoughts/feelings I was having. I've been on 10mg now for about a week and it seems to be working. I was told that it's possible, as one of the side effects of going on a higher Haldol dose, is that my eyes could roll back in my head and stay like that until I get to emerg and have them inject me with a combination of cogentin and ativan. Not a lovely thought, thank god it never happened to me. I seem to take medication well though in the sense that my body needs more medication than most would require so a 10mg dose may be like a 5mg dose for somebody else. I think I've always been that way.

It's like a combination of being manic and in a psychosis at the same time. It's exhilarating.

So I'm trying to get in touch with my future landlord to confirm a definitive date for the completion of the renovations. The last we spoke, July 1st was going to be doable but I'm sort of questioning that now. We may need to get another car cause my husband's is gonna take a shit anytime now I can see it. The debate lastnight at my husband's was whether he should just stay in Kingston (physically) until he gets licensed and "knows how to do stuff" or move in with my son and I in July and commute until he gets licensed and "knows how to do stuff" at which point he would look for a job in Brockvegas. I'm not really comfortable with him staying in Kingston but whatever.

That's all for now. I'm sorta bummed now.

...J